Well i had this very weird but kinda scary dream.I dreamt that i was this Thai boy hu survived the deadly tsunami n somehow lost my parents.Well i was practically lost n had no one to cling on for help.Can u imagine losing ur loved ones n being alone in life with no support??How would u survive without money n food??i somehow woke up after asking myself those questions.I saw those dead pple in the newspaper n on the internet.It was kinda freaky n i symphatize with those young kids hu survived the pandemonium.These kids will grow up having really bad memories in their life.Losing ur close ones is really a hard blow.Well i really pity them.WELL ENuff OF the Tsunami stuff k.
OK.On to my love life.WeLL currently i am single cos wad i told a galI really want to concentrate on my studies cos of the consequences of being in love.I heard of stories bout some guyz hu really screw up their O's becos of gals.Well gals maybe the ones hu help pick u up in life but they r oso the ones hu can destroy ur life.See wad an Irony!!But the problem with me is that i want both of it even though i noe i cant balance them.Life is unfair.I alwasys tell myself that its now or never.I dunnoe whether this is true but i need help.If i choose to continue with love u must tell wad to choose.GaL X->A very competetive gal hu nvr gives up in gettin wad she wants in life.She is full of joy hu can bring some colours to my life.Very Understandin person hu is helpful too.GaL Y->Has the good looks.Very kind n Understandin too but i find her a bit childish.I dunnoe but it adds more to her joyful side.She has this stunning smile n laugh.
WELL I HOPE u help me choose k just in case.
I just realise that i haven complete my 100 pages of Bio homework.Haiz,my O levels are just in 6 months.I haven read any books during the holidays.I want to improve but there is this sense of laziness in me.I wanna be like taufik batisah.I like the way he work.He has perseverance n is willing to work hard despite all the critics.I like his gung-ho style.I wish i could be have more of those qualities in my life.I just dun have confidence in myself.I nvr saw myself as 1 of the contenders to top my class next year.I lack Confidence.I hope i can gain that when sch starts.Wish me luck for my O levels k.I guess thats all for today.ChankZ.!Tata!

Wahahaha!!haiz yty go help out ma kuz wedding.Its like so tiring man.Carry things,wash dishes,dry them.WoaH can die u noe.But at least get to play with my baby nephew.He so cute man.Then i took photo of him n send it to Farah.The pic made him look like those Arab-Niger type of baby.Then today band prac was like cool sey.We tried Allelujah Laudamus Te n QYO Olympic Theme song or sumthin like tat.Very nice cos the chords n all like so the old St.Pats!!But our brass section too loud but i not happy with myself cos my hanover high range notes still like shit!!GRrr..Guess wad i still haven done my 100 page of Biology Homework.Guess i gonna get screwed upside DOWN!!!Wah,then just now saw the anger management movie like so funny sey.That buzznick guy so unlucky!!hahaha.wELL to my sangPuterI aku Cinta pada mu.I LOve u.Wo Ai NI!!i guess thats all for today k.WeLL i wanna play CORNET tomorrow!!muST!! ~TaTA~hehe

I had a nice day today at least.Well i got lost in Downtown East when i first arrived there but thank goodness met this jnrs of mine(nadhir,ridz,jonny,ivan) hu at least brought me to the place i wanted to go!!Well we were walkin around n around the whole place n we met Kekang.Then went bowling n guess hu i saw man,its that gal!hu made me fall for her,hu got tested by me for her love.Well i didnt expect her to be there cos she told me yty she was gonna cut her hair n had no MonEy.She made me sympathise her for nothing.Well i had told u guyz that i hate Liars n she nicely LIED to ME!!i am still confused in my heart.Shld i or shldnt i???I dunnoe y but I seem to have an interest in gals that are already attached.Damn Unlucky Ryte!!Well guess its fate but i am trying my best not to hurt anyone.Nah,enuff bout love already.Love really make u suffer i guess.Its just a waste of time for young adults like me.The chalet just now was the beST!!Glosz was there in his bermudas i tink.hehehe.everyone was there to help out except the current sec2 batch!!Grrr,wads with them man.No initiative izzit!!Then i learn how to play guitar from the great lOuis.He was pro man!!Its a St.pats thing.hahaha.My Christmas Gift was kinda cheap but it was nice.COOKIES!!haha.Then we had this lucky draw thingy where 1 person from each batch will get presents from the teachers.Well they had to answer the questions at least.The qtns part was Lame but at least someone planned the lucky draw!!One jnr of mine made a bet with his whole batch that if he got the winning number,he would kiss MEroY!!WeLL,that was like the last thing on Earth for me.But,Lady Luck was just on his side and he got that number.When the teachers ask if anyone got the number,there was the beaUtiful silence.He didnt admit it that he got the number for the first ten minutes.He was a total idiot to make a deal like that.But it was kinda fun.Well thats all for today i guess.!~Tata!~

Haiz,today's junior band practice wasnt really nice.The juniors were playing total crap for brass sectionals.Its shitty.I swear but somehow they improved along the way.At least my section was quite on track for P.O.P.Their drills was like oso like their playin.Was hoping someone could polish it up.Hehehe.I got my chance to take them drills.Next month their PassingOutParade u noe.Must come St.Pats n watch k.My batch members are at the bbq pit already n its like i am nicely here at home.OH god!Tomorrow is the chritmas party n guess wad i haven BOUGHT MY PRESENTS yet.Its a yearly thing where the whole band gets together n bond!!!WE RocK Lah.i bet this year's presents wont be as good as last year.Last year meroy bought like Nike t-shirts for his section if i am not wrong.hes like freakin rich man.Nvm later i gonna buy something for my section lah!!Its been a long time since we had a band thing u noe.Maybe we shld start organize some activity where everyone can join in!!hehe.haiz,yty i went to take my photo for IC.Quite nice lah.haha.i am nice lying to my darling hidayah!!Didnt noe she really love me a lot.Its so fun to noe that ur being love.Well i dun think anyone noes that i have a bloggie.Up to them to search for it.i met my classmates just now n its like..only yty that i was a shorty pants n now i am already a Sec 4 taking O levels already.Its like so fast.I gonna miss my buddies man.WE aRE BrotHers For Life rite!!4E2 we gonna rock our ASS OFF Man.I must Get my target 14 points next year!!SAJC or CJC here I COME!!!but first SYF.WeLL hope pple in the band would work harder to achieve that standing ovation in syf k.TWE n SAS r like improvin so fast n i cant stand IT!!!We r improvin at such a slow rate.Well i think thats all there for today k.*~TatA~*

Firstly,i am very confused on my love life.I dun actually noe if this gal really like me,or is she just toying with my feelings.Soon i gotta noe that she wants true love,but i just realise i cannot give her that.I got lots of problems actually.Nobody understands me truly.Well i am so stress rite now that my white hairs are already appearing.People think i dun have a heart but well i gotta say that they are wrong.Calling me a jerk was the biggest insult i ever got n it just went straight into my heart.Do these gals noe wad i went through.I ignored my studies n my passion for music for them.I didnt get good results but i ended up with a good old nag n scolding from my mother.I actually didnt even think bout my section's future.I will keep thinkin bout them.And i got humiliated by this fucker called glosz.U tell me do u think its fair.well i admit that i didnt tell her earlier but i am really sorry.well u wont wanna noe wad i went through coz if u do u will nvr forgive urself.I cried after that humiliation,pple laughed at me but i dun care coz its becos of u gals i kept stayin on.i stayed on and kept on goin thru this tough n rough road coz of u.but i got this insult for saying sorry cos i cant give her wad she wants.Sumtimes i gotta agree gals dun understand the problems that guyz have.My father n mum just love to shout at each other n i am always the one stuck in da middle.sometimes i feel like commiting suicide.i hope these gals would understand the problems i am goin through.my birthday just past like 11days ago.it was kind of nice cos i got wishes from everyone n i am quite happy on that day.well i didnt get to go to TWE concert n i still haven't got my refund!!!QYO was a good band but its not balanced.the trumpets were stickin out like MAD!!!oMG but at least their sound was nice.hehe.i had masterclass with sebastian n goD it was nice to have an alumni back.ZuL came on the same day too n he played his flute like nobody's business.Zul the trombone n flute GOD of SPSMB!!ALL HAIL!!well zul n sebas played this duet together n my the sound like the angels in heavens playin the lovely instrument.how i wish i could become like that.WELL at least my section's state improved after some talks but there's still problems.CK is kinda stubborn n he thinks he is always rite.Forrester is kinda a arrogant n proud n LAZY.same goes to jonny n addy.how i wish everyone could wake up and realise that SYF IS IN less that 5 months time.At the rate we are goin i doubt we could even smell gold.the band is very unbalanced.Horns are always Blastin n etc.I appreciate those hu still supports SPSMB.I wanna tell those aSSes in the band that pple outside the band still hold this burning flame of respect for us n it is in our hand to keep that flame goin ON!!we are St.Pats!!Like Nigel says, WE aRE a CUt aboVe the REst!! (rafiq)->Mess with the bess,Die like the rest!!PLS WAKE UP K.Omg i sTILL dunnoe how to add my photo n contacts.well i thinks thats all for today k.N to the gal in my life,i still love u but i cant give my time for u.hope u will forgive me n realise the problems i have in my life.SPSMB SHall ROCK THE POWERHOUSE!!!!! SYF 2005 HERE WE COME!!!