Firstly,i am very confused on my love life.I dun actually noe if this gal really like me,or is she just toying with my feelings.Soon i gotta noe that she wants true love,but i just realise i cannot give her that.I got lots of problems actually.Nobody understands me truly.Well i am so stress rite now that my white hairs are already appearing.People think i dun have a heart but well i gotta say that they are wrong.Calling me a jerk was the biggest insult i ever got n it just went straight into my heart.Do these gals noe wad i went through.I ignored my studies n my passion for music for them.I didnt get good results but i ended up with a good old nag n scolding from my mother.I actually didnt even think bout my section's future.I will keep thinkin bout them.And i got humiliated by this fucker called glosz.U tell me do u think its fair.well i admit that i didnt tell her earlier but i am really sorry.well u wont wanna noe wad i went through coz if u do u will nvr forgive urself.I cried after that humiliation,pple laughed at me but i dun care coz its becos of u gals i kept stayin on.i stayed on and kept on goin thru this tough n rough road coz of u.but i got this insult for saying sorry cos i cant give her wad she wants.Sumtimes i gotta agree gals dun understand the problems that guyz have.My father n mum just love to shout at each other n i am always the one stuck in da middle.sometimes i feel like commiting suicide.i hope these gals would understand the problems i am goin through.my birthday just past like 11days ago.it was kind of nice cos i got wishes from everyone n i am quite happy on that day.well i didnt get to go to TWE concert n i still haven't got my refund!!!QYO was a good band but its not balanced.the trumpets were stickin out like MAD!!!oMG but at least their sound was nice.hehe.i had masterclass with sebastian n goD it was nice to have an alumni back.ZuL came on the same day too n he played his flute like nobody's business.Zul the trombone n flute GOD of SPSMB!!ALL HAIL!!well zul n sebas played this duet together n my the sound like the angels in heavens playin the lovely instrument.how i wish i could become like that.WELL at least my section's state improved after some talks but there's still problems.CK is kinda stubborn n he thinks he is always rite.Forrester is kinda a arrogant n proud n LAZY.same goes to jonny n addy.how i wish everyone could wake up and realise that SYF IS IN less that 5 months time.At the rate we are goin i doubt we could even smell gold.the band is very unbalanced.Horns are always Blastin n etc.I appreciate those hu still supports SPSMB.I wanna tell those aSSes in the band that pple outside the band still hold this burning flame of respect for us n it is in our hand to keep that flame goin ON!!we are St.Pats!!Like Nigel says, WE aRE a CUt aboVe the REst!! (rafiq)->Mess with the bess,Die like the rest!!PLS WAKE UP K.Omg i sTILL dunnoe how to add my photo n contacts.well i thinks thats all for today k.N to the gal in my life,i still love u but i cant give my time for u.hope u will forgive me n realise the problems i have in my life.SPSMB SHall ROCK THE POWERHOUSE!!!!! SYF 2005 HERE WE COME!!!