Hahahahah.Ok.This is a shoutout to my brother who celebrated his 22th birthday yesterday.Happy Birthday Bro ! Well,birthdays in the family aint a big affair in my family.Everyone seems to think that its the thought that counts.Weird.hahaha.

The day started out real fine.With me being able to do my econs and understanding a bit of the math in mathematical induction.Simply superb.Skipped Malay after that since my malay partner skipped too.As a result,i wasnt able to do the malay composition.So i headed to the library and studied Thermochemistry.Not bad.Understood more as i read carefully all the notes that i had jotted down.The chemistry lecture was BAD.hahahaha.I didnt understand a single thing that the lecturer said.Firstly,i found out that organic chemistry is gonna kill me sonner or later.Secondly,I had to work extra FUCKING Hard if i want to get promoted.At the rate i am going.Promotion is far from sight.

I was able to do my chemistry tutorial after the lecture.Solid.Felt good when i knew something finally.

Next,was cricket practice.It was raining initially.After the rain had receeded we proceeded to playing cricket style soccer match(using your hands of course).My team,consisting of the Non-Stop-Tamil-Speaking people like Ela,Isma,Praveen and Siva.hahahaha.We won 5-2.Great teamwork.After that,we went to the nets.Where my bowling totally suck.Gotta say,Faisal have improved quite a bit.Batting was next.I swear i was damn happy with my batting.It improved so much that i was able to do the batting of the ball where u kneel down.Quite style.Able to whack some of those fast balls.Got 2 wickets overall,1 from a newbie,Ganesh and another from Faisal(big time NOOB in cricket).

We the proceeded to the KFC where we had a normal dosage of our lepak sessions.Then,mandhip,faisal,siva,harinder and me went to katong to play pool.I was a noob amongst them.They were better than me.Their slices was near perfect.Dota was next.Was damn fun i swear.Mandhip,Faisal and i were in the same team while mandhip and harinder was in another.Siva is damn pro.He basically have the game at home and practically practice everyday.He whooped our asses upside down.Didnt really quite understand why mandhip and faisal were following me.hahahaha.so we ended up in a cluster.hahahaha.so when siva appeared,he just killed all of us at 1 go.

Got home at 9pm and i guess,i shall have my beauty sleep now.

P.S: I need Maths Tuition badly.Maybe around 100-180 bucks a month.Preference to be in a group.Hopefully i can get all the non-amaths student to come together and get tuition.If you guys really have information.Please dont hesitate but do msg me at Mat_Metallic@hotmail.com

Ahh.The inter-house soccer competition at tpjc just now was just perfect.The people,the crowd was just nice(even though it only filled 1/4 of the grandstand.

After prayers,farhan,azfar and i went to farhan's house.Played dota for only 15 minutes.Man,the whole world out there seems so DARN GOOD.I was whooped in just matter of seconds.Plus,noobs usually buy power threads first.But it seems the pros would buy other objects that would gain their strength.Played fifa 2006 after that,where i whoop azfar's ass in the x-box.hehe.

Reached school on time for the scocer competition.Farhan's match was due to start in 5 minutes.So he was kinda wearing his socks in the bus.weird dude.Heider was freaking skilled.I think he is like among the best soccer players in tpjc.tries to act humble though.haiz.Faiz,Heider,Shakir,Danial Hitesh.Foooh.This players are the best i have seen in my life.Actually the Seagulls should be among the top dogs with the Phoenix being the top.However,Phoenix had a draw.Awww.I guess its the complacency of the team la.They were like saying they were the best even before the competition started.It must have got up their head.hehehe.No offence.Made quite a few friends during the competition.

Heron,the underdog,is now the top team in the competition if i'm not wrong since they won every single match.Danial was the one man army.hehe.his long range shot was unstoppable as its like frank lampard's shot.Then came the applause.Pakkiu and Zachary(a.k.a Johnson) is like the lungs of the team.They were running up and down,non stop.Their stamina is like some turbo engine.Plus,the team showed some teamwork which the others really lacked.Even though they lack no.of matches played together,the level of understanding between the players were amazing.

Anyway,lots of people came to know about me being barred from the competition.Hmmm,it seems as if there was a newspaper circulated around the school.Then came Mr Samad who jecked me by saying that i have been skipping PE Lessons in front of siva and farhan.Dang.I was like,jecked in the face.But nvm,he is a nice dude.So i dont mind if it came from him.hahahah.Plus,there were some group of girls whom i dunno them well,maybe only by name who said hi to me.There was even one who asked me to find out who she was.She seems cute and sweet.hahahah.Plus hot also la !!.

Saw a couple of people with those pissed off faces because they lost some matches.Nazri was really fuming man.Eagles got thrashed by Seagulls,comprising of Izzat and Faiz,plus farhan and hakim.Power pack!! The god of soccer scored 2 goals while izzat contributed one.

Went bubble tea shop after that with the mat-gang.hahaha.Well,they were kinda fun.Saw some group of hot minahs.Blown away.hahahah.After that went home.Didnt know that farhan has been trying to call me.He was freaking pissed when he saw me at the bus stop with izzat.Well,i am seriously sorry to farhan.Sorry for not answering ur calls.

Gotta sleep now.Ciaoz.


I was in awe when you approach to ask me to find out more about your name.Soon I came to know that it was a really impressive name.I am still blown away by your looks.Please my dear,tell me that you will still be there waiting for me...

Wooot.The paper today was so TOUGH.No matter how many times u actually dig ur ear,this time,the questions require more thinking.The common test for malay listening comprehension was much simpler as it was actually an MLB paper(idiots guide to success in malay).hahahha.

Today,some girl,SHOE,suddenly talked to me asking if i know shane meyer.Now,that guy is like too popular already.I suddenly feel so out.hahahha.

Nothing much happen.Maths was better with the new teacher.Gonna miss him man.He teach solid stuff.Slow and steady pace.Mathematical Induction shall be my forte.I will work on my algebra !!

After lessons end,i joined the S12 malay clique.Not bad.Hardworking bunch of people.Was really impressed by Heider.He so god-damn discipline that he would sit in the same place until he finishes studying and then he would proceed to talking and playing.Now,the lastime i saw that was in Glenn.Not bad.

i guess i gotta chao now.Need to sleep.see ya my diary.



I was disappointed when i saw guys oogling at her.I felt dumb when i heard she was from a better school.I was just...Devastated deep inside my heart.How i wish,my lovely one,would come to thy lover...

Well,i chanced upon my primary school's blog recently.I was kinda appalled by some revelations.It seems that she had been having abortions and pre-marital sex countless of times.Being a muslim,its actually a sin to even have sex before marriage.According to a recent statistics,there has been increase in the number of underage malay muslims having sex.It is kinda embarrassing sometimes.But what can i do? This is the harsh reality of life.People dont actually obey the sacred rules anymore.Instead,lust got over them.Actually,i kinda envy these people.Because they get to experience sex before me(now i feel like a sore loser!!).It must have been an out of this world experience.

My brother,Sam,use to tell me how much he wanted to do these stuff(eg:sex,tattoo,piercings) but its just because of our religion that is preventing him from doing these actions.I gotta agree that these things do seem cool.Well,i have seen my friends going off the tangent and join these bad influences.Well,i was from a very notorious school.Cant blame myself for seeing the notorious side.

Anyway,on to some blogs which i again i chance upon.It seems that girls really have high expectations for their dream guys.Like for some classmate of mine.I was thinking,if you actually expect too much,wont it be devastating if you dont actually get Mr.Right ?

I have been reading the Harry Potter Book again.Shit.Getting hook onto it.I'm not studying.haiz.Well,yesterday went to school and then prayers.After that,kimmy,farhan and i went to farhan's house to get his guitar.Well,one of his strings wasnt there so we had to go and buy it.Was kinda suprised when i saw a FHM magazine on the table.I kept thinking to myself.What the hell is that magazine doing on the table?Its like in the open.So the first thing i said to farhan when he came down from his room is that,if it was his FHM.Well,to my suprise,initially i heard it was his DADs.hahahaha.Well,after some explainations it turns out to be his mums.Even shocking.Usually mothers would be the more conservative lot.Hakim was as usual munching away every food that he saw in farhan's refridgerator.Keep on Eating MAN !!

Didnt do much after that,other than keeping a lookout for bees.hahahah.I got this phobia of them since I hate to be stung.And i just found their hive in my sister's room.I shall destroy THEIR HOUSE !! ARGH !!.

The Bahas(Debate) on Suria just now was quite cool.There were fewer audiences this time around and they Madrasah students interviewed Cikgu Malik.Not bad.Baik Cikgu !!I found the Best Overall Speaker Pretty.aahahhaha.Nurul Hafizah Tan.I shall remember that name !! Like faizal,i suddenly found pious women an instant hit.Its damn fun to see the debators fumble.TJC won the Madrasah students.

I guess thats all for the day.Gotta catch up on Potter boy ...

Sometimes in life, you always encounter this feeling.It just demoralises you sometimes.Making you feel dumb,unwanted and in other words a LOSER.Well,this feeling i am talking about is DISAPPOINTMENT.

First Disappointment: My 2.4km timing

It wasnt what i wanted.I really wanted that 10 mins + range. While i was running,felt cramps in my right leg.Had to slow down but i told myself that i had to continue to achieve that aim.My heart was pumping hard to other parts of my body but it just didnt give me the strength to make me run faster.My lungs were expanding at a rapid rate that i just couldnt take it anymore.In the end i gave up and slowed down.Thus,i didnt achieve my aim.

2nd Disappointment: Common Test Results

My eyecandy did WAY better than me.haiz.She really whoop my ass in terms of results.Especially chemistry.I was checking out the individual rankings for chemistry.Turns out that i was one of the last few.My class was last in the rankings for chemistry.Really disappointing.I swear that i am so gonna do better the 2nd time.I need to !! If not, getting past that hurdle would just be impossible.

Finally when for PE after such a long time.hahahah.Hey,i was tired k !! Well, did my 4 rounds that i owed.I hate thursdays!!.Its the longest day for me and passing each period of lesson seems like a barrier for me.Haiz.

I need to buck up and start pulling my socks if i really want to do well.My msn stop working at the right time.I am really happy that i can finally start concentrating on my major subjects.Hmmm,but how am i gonna do my project without the use of MSN ? heck it

Gotta Mug Mug Mug and Defeat David in Biology and claim my THRONE back !!
David you will be on my dart board background picture of the month.hahahaha.

~~~ TATA ~~~

Germany Won !!

Woot !!

Wonderful goals by Sweinsteiger 2 long range efforts and 1 own goal by Petit allowed the Germans to whoop Portugal's ass.Nuno Gomez headed in one last minute goal from a Figo's cross

Final Score:3-1

Stayed quite late to watch that match.Had a chat with sam on the phone about the Dota Game we had yesterday.Slept at 5am.

Anyway,today,i made my way to national library in bugis.I woke up a 1pm exactly(i always have perfect 8 hours of sleep).Then i realised that i had PW meeting at 2pm.So i quickly jumped out of my bed and just dashed to the toilet to have my bath.After bathing,ate my lunch and was ready to get out of the house when suddenly i received a msg that PW meeting was now at 3pm.Thank goodness.Maybe there might be some blessings for this.hahahha.So i managed to finish up my GP Holiday Assignment.The passage was just confusing and my english isnt as good as during the O level year.

Left house and reached National Library at 3.15pm.Went to the basement and vooaaalaa.I met my eyecandy,AC.She was va-va-voom.That gorgeous smile was still there.Said hi and just smile backed at her.She replied too with that sweet,cute,seductive and everything nice smile.

I quickly got up to the 11th floor to start our PW business.My oh my.Its the same old person who isnt there for the PW meetings.Shan't say the name but well i just dont like it when someone is so just god damn lazy.She is always M.I.A for every lesson.Skips school every tuesday if i'm not wrong.Its like a routine for her.Haiz.I guess thats the challenge about PW.Working well with others.And i seriously cant work well with her cos she is hardly there for meetings !!

Didnt do much for the meeting.Just did the allocation for EOM and bits of survey questions.Left for home after that.And again,i met AC.hahahah.Wanted to said bye but just didnt gather enough courage to said that to her.hehe.Went to the train and saw her boarding the train towards Boon Lay side.Guess she's going town.

Now i just gotta start finishing all the GP hw that i have.So much.Haiz.Thats all for today.






Lesson Learnt Today:
Each time you're in love,you keep encountering that special person anywhere and everywhere and you will just start smiling like an idiot.

Happy Birthday to my Father!!.He is 54 today!! Felt bad for not getting him anything and also not spending enough time with him.Haiz.

Not forgetting, Happy Tanabata ! (read more about this romantic love story on this day).There is even a song to commemorate such a day called Seventh Night of July by Itaru Sakai.Very Soothing and melodious song.

Anyway,school just now was so god-damn boring.Came school late and proceeded for Maths Tutorial straight.Got back my maths result.Failed as expected and got the marks which i really hoped for considering i know nuts about AP,GP and Sequences and Series.hahahaha.Got a U.Needed 1 more mark to get a Sub-pass.I seriously find passing a subject now like a barrier which i need to overcome.Without Additional Maths background,i was at least able to do as well as some of the people who had them in class.I was kinda happy on that part.But the highest was only a D.As usual,it was our maths genius Hidayat who kinda disappointed everyone by not getting an A.

Malay was next and uptil now,we still havent receive our malay scripts yet.I wonder what the teachers were doing? Making Ketupat? hahahaha .So during malay,we watched some malay movie called Sepet(made in malaysia).The storyline itself was kinda interesting.Its about a chinese pirated vcd peddler falling in love with a malay girl who wanted to buy some Japanese drama vcd.Well,each time i see how hard it is to be in an interaccial relationship,i keep thinking about myself.Do i even stand a chance?She is so god-damn cute.She is just simply magnificient each time you see her.Anyway,throughout the movie,there was like a few times where vulgarities were heard(eg.chee bye,fucking,fucker).This is like a Malaysian movie and i wonder how this movie escape censorship.hahahah.

After that was break and chemistry lecture and tutorials.Nothing much happen during that period.Went for friday prayers with shakir and faizal.Faizal was freaking funny during the journey there as he was telling us about all the hot minahs that he encountred.He thinks he is popular(which i think he is cos he is like damn loud).Plus,he was like kinda sad that girls like him more as a friend rather than as that special someone.Pity that guy.He is really nice,funny chap.I'm sure he would do just fine with any girls even though he is a Milf HUNTER !!

Cricket was tiring but wasnt that bad.Ela is like a revelation to the cricket team.His bowling skills is superb.He managed to bowl me out twice if i'm not wrong.Shane was there too since there was'nt any national training.He somehow gave me fast balls which i managed to hit only during the last few rounds.My back kinda hurt.I dunno why,but the position that i was holding the bat was so painful.It still hurts now.

Mr Denis said that my bowling kinda rusty which of course i know he meant that it sucks totally.Plus,he said that my height would give me an advantage during bowling.Guess,i shall train harder on these areas.Finished training earlier than expected and the captains was Shakir,vice-captain siva and mandhip.Well,they truly deserved their positions.Dedicated bunch of people.I do see some hardworking bunch of people in the team right now.But there are some who are just those people that gives up at the slightest mistake they make.Well don't lose hope my fellow cricketeers.

Went to Katong to play pool.We didnt have the right attire to entire.So siva and me went to parkway to buy those cheapo shirts at 2 for 10 bucks so that we could enter the premises of that pool shop.When we got back,we were sweating profusely like one mad dog.And shakir finally told us that he didnt have the right shorts to enter.Shakir went home while the rest(faizal,mandip,siva and me) stay on to play.Faizal wore some kinda tight cricket pants.You can even see the shape of his small ding-dings.hahahah.

As usual,i was always the tyco one.And faizal was darn good for a beginner.Siva was the best in my opinion while mandhip being left-handed,was in a more advantageous position most of the time.Met Hisham,Ashiq and the SRJC and St.Pats people.It was like 4E1 vs the 4E2 kinda dota match.As usual,hisham being the NOOB which he doesnt wanna admit,was killed a number of times.HAHAHHAHA.Accept defeat TALIB.You aint that great when you start boasting about your noobness.hahahah.

Faizal,mandhip and siva was as usual disrupting hisham's game.We were actually kinda suprise to see them there today.Even Hafiz(my classmate,who rarely ventures out of the class)was there.Went home after that.Man,i miss smallville.Fuck.

I learnt alot when watching the malay movies today somehow.


Guess i shall end here for today...I LOVE MY DAD !!




Is love that blind? To be able to cross racial boundaries and be in the same love frequency as that special one must be really amazing.The way these movies potray such interracial relationship made it look so possible .But is it,in reality?

Ooolaalaalaalaa

What a wonderful day.I swear man.It never got any better.Well,today,i came to school without a freaking purpose man.hahahah.Ms Sha was absent.And as a result had so many free periods.Including the GP and PW periods which i had to leave due to orals.Well,my class had a wonderful breakfast outing at TM just now.Ate at macdonald's and had a few chit chat sessions.Even Pak Was there.Now thats a suprise!!

After that breakfast outing,the mat clique plus samantha,ivan and alvin went to tampines safra to play pool.The pool table really suck compared to the one in parkway.Plus its small.It cost around 2 bucks per game.Now what a RIP OFFPlayed 1 game with Ivan ,1 game with Alvin and 1 game with Firdaus.All of which i lost narrowly.But i played based on tyco-ness and i was kinda rushing the game without aiming properly first.

I just realised my eyesight was so bad that I couldnt even see when i was aiming to hit the ball.Came back to school for orals to get back my papers.Haiz,when i saw the results,i was like,WTF !! . hahahah .

Chemistry i got U grade .. The same goes for bio .. Then when it was time for orals, i fumble.I had a little screw up in that reading passage and the conversation part was so bad that the teacher gave me the "What the fuck you talking" look.hahahha.

Oh yea.Not forgetting that Mr Samad had reminded me to go and see Mr Y.Well i went to see him but he wasnt there.I guess its because of what i wrote lastime.Haiz.I tot he let the matter rest ? Heck ! I didnt do anything wrong. Its my blog what .

I guess thats all for today people.Anyway,somehow,firdaus is like my buddy now man.hahahah.Baik firdaus !!

See ya.

Everyday and Everynight, To Dream of Him is my Delight ...

Some of the lyrics of this song: My Only One by an Indonesian Band,Mocca.



I wonder why am i hooked onto this song ? Each time i hear this song,I would be reminiscing about the past.Dinie.One lesson learnt is that never let go of the oppurtunity in front of you the next time you have it(maybe there wont be a next time?).Haiz.

Yesterday,had a game of soccer with the st.pats buddies.Well,the turnout was pretty bad with only ash,sam,shakir,ernest,dominic,joo,roshan and i present.First,we had a match with the VJC students.My oh my.They were the fittest thing alive.I swear their fitness levels were basically the best i've seen.Plus they were pretty organised and efficient.If i'm not wrong there is one VJC soccer player.He does have that leadership skills.We managed to win them narrowly most of the time with them scoring back 1-2 goals.

Next,was against sec 1 students.We were damn tired by then but we persevered to play just to satisfy our lust for victory.Alas,we got thrashed by these mere lil tots.Well,except for 1 bilingual mat in the team who practically can speak mandarin,malay,english.Their team were close knit and had really good understanding.Thats why they thrashed us.hahahah.

I somehow found myself playing better with longer lasting stamina.There was one goal which really made me content for that day.After a long soccer game.We all went our seperate ways with the rest of them going for pool while i went home to catch up a bit on my books.Chemistry and Biology.I shall bang on you 2 for the next 2 months.

After 1 hour,i went to release the tensions in my brain by joining my buds at katong playing a bit of lan.2 hours of DOTA.I'm improving rather fast.Well,hisham claims to whoop my ass in that game a lot of times which in the actual fact was only 3 times.Hmmm,the first game my group lost due to michael joo leading the game with high level.It really felt like hisham and ashiq were'nt even there.hahahahah.Ashiq is really getting hooked onto bone clinkz man.hahahah.

Here are my Aims for this Term:
*Come early for school
*Start doing tutorials
*Continue Jogging 4 times a week
*Do maths at least once a day
*Read 1-2 chapters of biology or chemistry once every 2 days.

This term is to make up for the bad results i gained for the last term.I swear i shall make sure i will do better for the promos.I cant retained.And i seriously will have no help available this time around.Sobs.

I guess thats all for today.Tata...

I just finished playing LAN with my bossom buddies just now at Katong.Came late actually, but managed to play 3 rounds of DOTA.I can say that my skills have improved and i kinda know what to buy now.Usually my heroes would be of agility type.Cloning heroes seems to be damn good somehow ? But i chose the Dragon Knight on the last round.He was also impressive but he attacks on a slower basis.I love his dragon !! Brandon also seem better now.Initially, he was kinda , err , not our level yet ? But its fun to play with noobs like me.You get that sense of satisfaction each time you win.

After that,we had the normal lepaking session.2 hours man just go off like that.Hmmm,maybe i should be like hidayat man.He is seriously a balanced person.He studies first and then relax which is a good technique.But i usually cant be bothered to follow such a routine.hahahah.Thus,i would play first.And after that,you know the usual stuff,you would be freaking tired to even open the first page of your god-damn book.

Farhan sent me 2 songs just now.One local band called Mocca,which sounded better than average and another song by high school musical.Hmmm,everyone seems to have seen the movie.Maybe i should start getting updated.hahahah.

Sometimes,i really dunno what is wrong with me.But i somehow still like that girl(X) after 2 years man.This is the real me.I'm always so close yet i will somehow decide to back off.Fuck.Seriously.Being a man,i should just go forward rather than keep moving backwords.I dunno,but there is something lacking in me? actually i know the factor,but its just not upto me.haiz.

She looks so beautiful from the pictures i see.Her smile is simply amazing.She makes me melt.She is like the angel from the sky.The one tat just shows light whenever there is darkness.I really find her special.haiz.

I kept a secret from my buddy once about another girl Y,where i was just few inches away from entering her heart and i back off.





Whatever it is,i will still hold the burning fire of love in my heart for you